Our schedule is flipping around and we're still raking over the coals of eBay. I'm still unemployed, :( but I guess that's okay (not really).
The weather is kind of wacky everywhere (snowing so close to Los Angeles?!). I feel like time is running down and what 'needs to be done' is getting closer and closer. I guess it just depends on if I'm gonna be ready.
Do you ever have those moments where you feel like something is going on under the surface of consciousness and you really should be aware of it, you really should be ready... But you're just not? That's how I feel. I used to ignore those feelings or feeling like that, but now I can't. Instead, I'm slightly wandering around trying to find the correct direction to head in. I guess the best way to understand what I'm saying is to perhaps look into yourself and see if you feel the same way (global consciousness).
So those moments when you're driving around in your car and you realize... 'here I am'. Those are the moments that I am continually experiencing these days. I realize that 'goddes, I'm so small'. Do you ever feel like that? Even just a little of that feeling can go a long way. If anyone reading this has ever felt that, maybe you can then understand what I'm talking about. Otherwise you probably think I've lost my mind. But that doesn't bother me very much any more (what people may think), because when we die, we each stand alone in the reality that we've individually created for ourselves. The experience you have at death is based on the religious beliefs you had in life.... at least for a little while, then you finally realize you're dead and you become freed from your life-based beliefs.
These are all just my beliefs and thoughts, I'm not trying to push anything on anyone, that would be the last thing I would want to do.
Current mood: hungry
Currently listening: Red Carpet Massacre - Duran Duran
*this post has been adopted from my old MySpace blog*
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