Today...

This is my first blog. I have had it for over a month and have yet to actually write anything in it. That's rather pathetic. When I first signed up for the blog I really thought I was going to be more active with it. I always think too highly of myself, because I habitually never follow through with things I say I am going to do. That annoys me. I'm aware of it, but I still don't change it... no ones fault but my own.

In fact, I have had a dream of being a fiction writer since I was a teenager and I have yet to follow through with it. It's disappointing really. I try to motivate myself and I enjoy thoughts of being an author (the mental visions of seeing my pseudonym on the cover of my 10th published book). So, I get into writing, an idea comes rushing through my head, I grab my pen and paper, write the first few pages or synopsis or what-the-hell-ever and bam! I'm slammed with apathy for everything, my writing, my self, my vision and I don't ever pick it up again. At least not until another "brilliant" idea comes along. Hmm, how does a person overcome apathy for what they produce, think, or feel? It's all around me really.

I thought having an online blog (hell of a lot more different than MySpace) could help me get out my internal angst, here's hoping!

*No story can tell itself... there is always the author, someone to tell it.*

More later